Tuesday, January 27, 2004

first tooth

SO, Cass was a real bear for a while there. Not sleeping through the night. Crying for seemingly no reason at all. I started calling her Sybil cuz her moods were changing faster than Mariah Carey's.

Blixx figured out why, when she bit him wicked hard. Yep, our little munchkin has her first tooth!!!

And currently the 2nd is beginning to cut, which means not a lot of sleep for Mommy & Daddy.

Thursday, January 15, 2004

unreliable?

Which Fantasy/SciFi Character Are You?



About 5 minutes after my last blog about how no one calls me, Tempest called about Jacknife's party this weekend. Ok, so perhaps I was being a little self-loathing and not seeing the big picture.

Haven't seen Blixx for more than 15 minutes a day this whole week - he's working crazy hours. I really do take it for granted that he supports us while I stay home with little one. I've got to do something nice for that man.

HBS is paying up on the 8 past due invoices, thanks to my collections skills. Oh yeah baby, show me the money! Mortgage gets payed this month!

Friday, January 09, 2004

Up to my eyeballs in snot

Cass & I both developed wicked head colds, which was less than wonderful. For those not in the know, infants can't just blow their nose...Mommy needs to get on up & in there with a nasal aspirator and suck the snot out of her little head. Then there was the coughing, which sounded horrible coming from such a small, fragile little creature, and only got worse when she coughed so hard that she puked.

Motherhood is grand.

We're both on the mend now, with only occasional bouts of snot activity. She's still on an eratic sleep schedule, which is playing havoc with me and Blixx, but we'll survive.

New Years eve we stayed home and were heavily medicated. I honestly barely remember midnight - I was just curled up on the couch under blankets wishing I didn't feel like ass. That's pretty much where I've spent the last few days too.

Perhaps it's the sleep deprivation, or maybe the cold meds...but I've been really down lately. The holidaze took their toll emotionally & I can't seem to bounce back. I've got all the time in the world, yet I get nothing done. I have no goals...nothing to look forward to. I feel isolated and lonely & the only friend who calls me on a regular basis lives in freakin Florida so it's not like I can just pop over for a visit and bitch session.

Something's gotta give soon or I'll freakin loose it!